It's mental illness, brain damage, and delusional belief systems.
If you had any balls at all you would delete your downloaded porn and go get
a real girlfriend.
If you understood human nature you would have insight into your own
pathological obsessions and seek help.
It's hate because you are never more alive unless you are tearing someone
down and accusing them of horrific crimes.
It's actually a lack of knowledge and an alcohol soaked brain seeking ways
to displace pent up frustration with past failures and nagging shortcomings.

I hope you found this p0ast informative.  HTH ;)

Are you descibing yourself, m8? What, are you a conspiracy kook?