Subject: DK's Experiences Of Being Controlled.  Part 4.    Nov. 21, 2011.

  Here he comes in contact with a person who acturally believe that
he was doing the right thing in torturing DK.

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                                       I gather they thought that the 
lightning
could be used as a plausible explanation of what had initiated the
psychotic breakdown, that they were arranging to simulate by
using the brain implant. They then incessantly tortured me for three
days. All along I was c-rsing them, and sincerely wished that they
would suffer forever in the eternal fire. I dont think I have ever felt
such a strong wish at any time. (I no longer feel that way about it.)
During those days they ought to have understood, that I knew
about the mind-control device, but I never stated it clearly and
you never know with people. On the third day, I came to the decision
that I would hang myself in one of the trees, if they hadn't stopped
the torture, before the evening of the fourth day. Since there were
no signs of much improvement, I made preparations, found a rope
and tried to focus on the practical aspects of the hanging, of what
could go wrong. I didn't wan't to survive with some severe brain
damage or a broken neck or something. I thought that that particular
forest wasn't a very inspiring place to die in, but I was really
determined to get away from the deep humiliation, that they were
forcing on me. A doctor was called by somebody and that doctor
calmly tried to convince me not to ki-l myself. I never gave any
explanation of why I had that intention, since I had never told
anybody about the mind-control horror I was enduring. I felt sorry
for the doctor. She had travelled a long way and I thought one
should reward people for showing empathy like that. In any case,
I accepted, to once more be sent to a mental hospital. At the
hospital, there were some friendly people, who told me they had
many fine medicines, that would be suitable. But this time there
were no threats. I also had made a decision not to say anything
about the reason for being there. I told them, they wouldn't beleive
me, and that I would be worse off if I told them. The torture did
not stop at the mental hospital although the mind controllers,
decreased the total amount of torture.

Not surprisingly, I had been placed in a room, where my room mate
suffered from cyclic psychosis. The mind controllers regularly
tortured and humiliated me in my room. Both on other previous
occasions, and in the hospital, they subjected me to manipulations
where the brain implant was used in a very sophisticated manner.
To begin with, it was used to create sounds inside my head, that
made it appear as if somebody was constantly manoeuvering the
water tubes above my head. On the same time they were affecting
those parts of the brain, through the implant, that affect the
senses for heat and cold, making it appear as if they were really
changing the temperature of the water in a chaotic manner.
Everybody knows how watertaps can sometimes behave in very
annoying ways, without any need for any deliberate sabotage,
but here it wasn't any natural cause, and it was a deliberate
harassment, intended to make my conditions unpleasant and to
provide the symptoms of insanity that they were so eagerly
striving for. Note that I had been prepared by actually being
surveyed by people walking above my head for periods of
several months or more, so it wouldn't have seemed out of
the question, that somebody might actually be standing
somewhere in some service shaft and adjusting the waterflow
or the cold / warm water ratio. It isn't easy to tell exactly
when a sound is a real one and when it's just inside your head.
But there is a way that probably is quite reliable. If the real
sound has very low dynamical content, that is the strongest
and the weakest parts don't differ too much, then it's harder
to tell the difference, but in most cases, genuine sounds,
caused by some physical act, are usually accompanied by fairly
strong impulses of various kinds that cause waves to travel
several different ways and not only to the ear through the air,
but also to the head through the legs from the ground, a
seismic wave if you like. You get a more 3-dimensional feeling
in a manner of speaking. The sounds they have produced sofar,
with the implant, can be characterised by lacking in that kind of
content. The reason is probably that they can't afford to use a
high dynamic range in the electronic equipment that they use,
since that would lead to an audible noise level, significative for
electronic equipment. But this technology is rapidly developing,
and they will undoubtedly continue to perfect the illusion.
During the torture session, which preceeded this second
encounter with the mental health care, among other things
they used the brain implant to simulate that the water to the
shower in the place where I stayed would be contaminated,
smelling unpleasantly. There wasn't anything wrong with the
water, but the illusion was quite good and it took a little while
before I realized, that the sense of smell, can be just as easily
manipulated through the brain implant as any of the other
senses.

I am fully aware of the fact that there are some forms of brain
damage or sickness, that sometimes can produce similar
effects. This awareness also, made me keep all these
observations to myself. If you constantly feed the controllers
with information about your current impressions, you make it
possible for them to be more successful in their deception
and manipulation, but when you tell them nothing and you let
the years go by, they have much fewer options and they have to be
extremely cautious and planning to foresee everything. They are to
some extent, but the task is too formidable. The Machiawellian
mind needs a little input to thrive. So the best is not to give him
any. This kind of counter measure only works as long as they want
to study you 'live'.
Otherwise it is possible to deprive a person of the control of the mind
to any degree.

During the prolonged torture session, there were some incidents where
they experimented with me in such a way that I could estimate the
resolution that the electronic device had on my skin. It seemed to be
very high and I knew that this meant that there must be a large number
of independent connection points between the implant and the brain.
Later I have learnt that modern brain implants exist, which establish
such contact by somehow stimulating the neurons to grow, or move
microscopically, so that they become partially encapsulated in small
cavities in the electronic device.

I was wondering, whether the implant can be used to read a persons
handwriting, by monitoring the signals in the brain caused by the
motions of the hand. I don't think so, but that may be coming. All along
I did have a very distinct impression that the mind controllers were
arranging a well thought-out combination of symptoms, that would fit
into some psychiatrists clinical experience, in order to turn the
truthful recount of my experiences into a we-pon in the hands of the
state perpetrators. I wonder how much of the clinical experience of
present day psychiatry, which, unknowingly, derives from the study of
such human guinea pigs.

Note added later:
Later, I read somewhere, that students of psychiatry are sometimes given
examples of paranoid schizofrenia, which seem to be aimed at preparing
unknowing psychiatrists for the situations typical when people are
subject to state t-rror of the kind under discussion, so that the
victims allegations and description of symptoms will, falsely, appear to
be a common occurrence among genuine cases of schizofrenia.

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This paragraph is written after the rest of the text, as an afterthought
and inserted where it belongs chronologically, but I didn't remember
this until after everything else was written.

As I am writing this, I suddenly also remember being talked to, at the
time of the peak of the torture period, by more than a single person,
but there was one that stood out. Somebody who seemed confident
(selfassured) and enthusiastic about what he was doing. I also had the
impression that this person had some sort of psychiatric background or
at least was familiar with psychiatry. This may have lasted for less
than an hour or at the most a few hours. This person seemed to think
that, whatever it was that they intended to do or for whatever purpose,
he was in his full right of doing it. I was going do get a lesson and he
would be the teacher or the pilot or whatever. He didn't sound cruel. He
just seemed to be very confident that he was doing the right thing. This
would seem to fit better with a different explanation from that I gave
earlier, namely that the intention would be some kind of shock therapy
as a part of a long-term experiment. The fact that I was allowed to hear
several voices may have been a way of telling me that there were several
people behind the decision to treat me thus. Maybe those guys really
feared that they would end up in the ethernal fire and that they needed
to strengthen their morale by showing me that they were at ease and that
they were sure that they weren't doing anything bad. It was only I, stupid
kid that I am, not to understand their great wisdom.

Part 4.

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