Must be terrible for you.  Have you found any abductee's support groups
worth a damn?  Interesting you were able to "remember" some events, I've
heard that most people require hypnotic regression (like the original case
with Betty and Barney Hill) from a therapist to recover missing time.

One of the newer theories about abuduction has to do with "Sleep Paralysis"
http://www.geocities.com/jorgeconesa/Paralysis/sleepnew.html
It has solved some "experiencers" problems.  That is to say, people that
were 90% sure they were abuducted, suddenly felt 90% sure they were
suffering some form of nightmareish lucid dreams, and the dreams ended (or
dramatically improved) when this explanation was presented to them.  Have
you heard anything about this theory?  (Of course this does not explain
abductions of people who were wide awake.)  Is this something you may have
discounted already?

Anyway, to your question, Col. Corso's book is available on Amazon.com.
Just do a search for "corso" or "the day after Roswell".  It is $6-$7 in
paperback and worth the read.  He worked in the "Foreign Services" dept. at
the pentagon.  In charge of back engineering foreign (Russian, China, etc.)
technology.  He claims to have seeded multiple alien devices (fiber optics,
Kevlar, microchip, etc) to corporations for development in the private
sector.  One section of the book mentioned a theory that the Roswell crash
was intentional to "seed" the Earth with silicon life forms, i.e. the
microchips found strewn around the craft, and that the aliens on board the
crashed spaceship were no more that flesh robots (don't remember his exact
terms, but something similar).

There was a website, but since the author died, it's been taken down.  You
can do a Yahoo search on "corso" and find MANY other websites that talk
about him.

Enjoy the book, and good luck with your recovery.
FIF



"LuckyHoodoo" <luckyhoodoo@aol.com> wrote in message
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Speculation on your part?  Do you have a source?  Seems like Col. Coroso

had

a similar opinion in his book.... The Day After Roswell.

I'm a former abductee.  Former because I have been a "problem" to them.

They

finaly decided to drop me and I haven't had an experience in almost 6

years

now. I figured that since no one will believe you and scientists and much

of

the public think you are crazy then I had no choice but to rely on myself

and

take on these beings head on.  I played psychologist.  Made observations

and

asked tons of off the wall questions with key questions embeded here in

there.

You know to disarm them. Don't ge me wrong, this was hard work that took

me

years.  When they take you, they "zombify" you but you experience brief

periods

of clarity.  I trained myself that durring those periods I would try to

take in

as much info as possible and force myself to remember.  I also would like

to

add that I do not claim to know everything about them.  All of my

statements

are based on the current knowledge/observations that I have obtained from

them.

It's quite suprising to find out how many vulnurabilites they have and

that on

some level they are afraid of us in that they view our brains as superior

to

their own versions of such.  That book you mentioned, is it still in

print?

What year was it published?  Does the author have a website?