Well, I never mentioined where I saw her.  No, a slipped disk is a
slipped disk and pinched nerve is a pinched nerve.  I went to a
chiropractor for it several times, and after he'd set it, it would slip
right back into extreem pain.  I'd been paying for weekly appointments.
 Sick, isn't a guilt issue.  I know guilt, and I'm no child.

Frankly, today I would say, "God, is a complete jackass."  You're an
idiot, and believe that it's all psychosomatic.  It's not, when the
sting of a wasp is absolute.

Why, because it's just another senario where no-one will believe it no
matter how true it is.  It's really fucked up because, it gives me a
reason to think of some-one that I have no real plans for, and
obviously doesn't have any plans for me.  We've have never spoken, and
never had any introductions.  In fact, there's no place or time for
that.  Believe me, I've been single for all but 6 years of my adult
life, and I'm 40, not 16.

Bottom line, it all goes straight into fuck it land.  Where, God, has
done as much before.  But, any normal person would just never believe
it.  I never make a production of those things, because I got slammed
the first time, then the second, and the third.  The first time, the
church, the second this person or that on the third.  Details, are not
even important beyond, what God, did, no one would believe, and that
was where all bullshit came from.

I asked God, to create the piano man.  Because, if some-one just
suddenly appeared out of no-where, speaking two languages fluently
would have them deported.  Government agencies are still working to
figure out where that guy came from.  If he could talk, and was
perfectly honest, he's maybe 7 years old now.  That's nothing compared
to what I've seen.  I've been in a strip club, and every single woman
had a face I picked out well before I had even walked in the door.  I
quit trying to find anyone to believe any of it, and my life is now so
far from normal, that without a few of those people around me, I can't
feel comfortable that God, is anywhere around.  Even at the bar,
there's at least 2 or 3 women and it's always that way.  I don't even
talk to them.  Therefore, there is no instant fix, and society, even
Christianity, is a form of contamination.  I've known that for a long
time.  They are all tantied.  There is only one good true verse in the
whole book.  Proverbs 22:6.  After that, Jesus Christ is lying to you
to claim to be there to save the world, or you'd be listening to a
tutorial on how to raise your kids, and that's what the real God, has
made point of.  I don't have kids, and I'm not in the PTA.  I'm all for
solutions that work, but I am not into shear vanity.  If I had kids, it
would be my responsibility to do those things right, and try to teach
others the same thing to be sure that my kids had real friends, and
weren't picked on or made fun of.  Home Schooling, will destroy the
potential of peace, because a child raised without any perspective on
how many people they can trust and by how much, is one that is paranoid
to function in a dense society.