Creation's Healing and Thoth's Confession

05/30/07

Greetings:

I am a scientist and work more with mind frequencies than those of the
heart, such as it is with most beings of the male polarity which is
not to say that they are all scientists but that they vibrate and
function with a greater amount of mind frequencies and less heart
frequencies. The heart frequencies are those of the feminine. What is
the difference here and what is the importance? Working with the basic
knowledge that everything in existence - "All That Is" -is energy at
different frequencies, in different configurations, then mind
frequencies are very different than heart frequencies.

When you think of the male energies that start the process of
'balanced Creation' using thought (mind), it is then the female
energies which hold the space (in the heart) for the thoughts and thus
completes the balanced Creation. In physical form this translates into
the male starting the process of creation by putting his seed (penis &
ejaculate/sperm) while the female holds the space for the seed to meet
her egg and gestate (in her womb) and balanced creation is completed.
We could not exist in the realm of relativity without this polarity,
without the male and female, without the mind and heart frequencies.

Without re-telling the story of Creation or by overly detailing the
dysfunction of the first Creational Family beings [told in Where Were
You Before the Tree of Life?], we know that this dysfunction has
created and perpetuated great imbalance in many sectors of Creation
including this sector and its focal point, your planet Earth. You
often hear the phrase, "true healing is through the heart" and this is
very true. In order for the True Light-Love of Father to return to
this sector in full, in order for us all to live in freedom and joy in
the original intended state of existence, we must resurrect and re-
implement the original blueprint of Father's Creation, we must achieve
a balance of male-female energies. We must take a multi-faceted
approach, from micro to macro and vice versa. All levels of creation
must be actively working at achieving healing and balance. Each of you
must make the effort to balance the heart-mind/ male-female
frequencies within. The female/heart frequencies have been suppressed,
trapped, blocked and stagnant for so long, with an over-flowing
abundance of mind frequencies floating throughout this sector of
creation and within each of you.

Male beings, female beings and neutral beings on all levels of
existence in this sector have suppressed their female/heart
frequencies perpetuating this imbalance. We must awaken these heart
frequencies within all of us and activate them in each individual's
vibrational structure. This will call for much emotional/energetic
movement of blocked, stagnant energies. Old wounds, old emotions will
need to be accessed and dislodged in order for the heart frequencies
to be reactivated and vibrating at a healthy and vibrant rate. This is
not unlike the unclogging of the arteries of the physical heart in the
physical human body so it can return to a healthy functional state.
The process of accessing old emotions and energies and dislodging them
can be very painful but well worth it and necessary.

So too, and most importantly, must the high-level Beings and
Creational Family partake in the healing and balancing process with
the emergence of the heart/feminine energies. For if this is not
completed at the highest level, the wounds of Creation will never
fully heal and the cycle (from macro to micro) of imbalance will
perpetuate itself.

It may be difficult for some of you to think of Creator Beings and
higher dimensional Beings as not being all-knowing or being imperfect
and capable of creating so much dysfunction and imbalance and
distortion but, "in the beginning" when these Beings were given
sections (voids) of creation to CREATE, we were all like children
learning as we went along. The process of healing and attempting to
undo the dysfunction that was done is like this as well. We
experimented and are still experimenting with different methods and
efforts to try and "clean up this mess" and we are all still learning
as we go.

I will speak now of my story. I am a scientist and I enjoyed the power
which I possessed. I was created with much power but I was also
extremely curious, a very good observer and a good student. Although I
had familial relationships and heart bonds with many Beings, nothing
was more intoxicating to me than my own power and what I could create
with it. Having power in and of itself is not necessarily dangerous,
but when you add the fear of losing that power to the equation, an
over-abundance of mind frequencies and inactive heart frequencies, you
create intense greed and lust and extreme misalignment from True Light-
Love (i.e., darkness) and the desire to do ANYTHING to hold onto that
power and to acquire more of it.

(Note: I am now feeling a great deal of sadness in Thoth's energy as
he is reflecting upon his past actions)

I worked along side Aliczia, a member of the Creational Family, (who
was known by many other names as most Creational Beings are) for a
very long time. We developed a close heart bond. We had similar
thirsts for power and exploration of our curiosities and own
Creational abilities. We did much experimentation and manipulation,
not only when incarnated on Earth but on all levels of existence.
Aliczia was a lover to me and also like a brother at times. Yes, I say
brother because in her fragmented state, separated from her first FULL
TRUE Self, Callia [the Infinite Mother Spirit for this SuprUniverse],
she suppressed her pain and her heart frequencies. She suppressed the
feminine in herself because she considered it weak and useless and
painful and she activated her mind frequencies to try and be at par
with her male counterparts. Unfortunately, that was the case with many
female high level Beings as well. They either adapted to one of two
states, becoming suppressed, weak and submissive or they suppressed
their feminine/heart energies to become more masculine, in both cases
disengaging the much needed balancing female/heart energies, which
then became blocked and stagnant down through all echelons of Creation
in all forms.

The one you call The Magdalene energies is also known as Myrrhiel.
Myrrhiel and Aliczia are very similar hence my intense love for both
of them. The Being incarnated at this time on Earth carrying the
Aliczia energies originally volunteered to take on some of the
Myrrhiel energies as it was decided they would be dispersed among
several high level Beings (more detail on that at a later time) to
incarnate on Earth at this time. She was able to do this because she
is a high level Creational Being and had done this in previous
incarnations because she had a very similar energetic structure to
Myrrhiel and because she was only supposed to host these energies for
a short period of time upon incarnating until the Myrrhiel energies
were assimilated and healed and taken out of her energetic body.
Unfortunately, it was more difficult than anticipated to assimilate
and integrate and heal the Myrrhiel energies and some of them stayed
with Aliczia much longer than anticipated. When the energetic load
became too much for Aliczia she had to break the agreement she made to
house the other energies and they were taken out of her energetic
structure and transferred to someone else. This overload became too
great for Alizcia and for her well-being she had to break the
agreement but not before damage was done to her various energetic
bodies. Myrrhiel and Alizcia are currently in the process of healing
(more as this process unfolds).

This is a little known fact but I, too, became a fragmented Being but
not in the same way that Enjilou and Callia fragmented. I will explain
to you my scenario. There were aspects of myself that longed intensely
to re-align myself with the True Light-Love of Father because I had
realized how much pain and dysfunction I had caused, because the false
peace and joy of empty power was becoming increasingly unsatisfying
and because I was in great pain as well. I believed it was only in re-
aligning with Father that I could heal and rid myself of this growing
emptiness and pain in my heart. Yet, there were still parts of me that
remained attached and addicted to the desire of power and the fear of
losing it (lower frequency energies). Parts of me reached higher and
higher to realign with the True Light-Love of Father and continually
activated higher based frequencies and parts of me remained unchanged,
vibrating at the lower level frequencies. It reached the point where
the two higher frequencies and lower frequencies became so
incompatible that it became impossible for them to exist in the same
energetic structure so I broke in two and became fragmented, higher
Thoth and lower Thoth who was still very dark and active.

The higher Thoth left for other sectors of Creation for healing and
remained in seclusion for a very long period of linear time but
returned to this sector of Creation to help undo what he had done and
try and convince his lower self to return to the True Light-Love for
healing. After Higher Thoth returned to this sector of Creation and
the other members of the Creational Family turned toward True Light-
Love for healing, it was only a matter of time before lower Thoth made
the choice to heal as well. The process of healing is still in
progress and energetically we are still not completely integrated but
we are healing and de-compartmentalizing and are actively seeking
forgiveness from all Creation and learning to forgive ourselves.

The two Thoths is one explanation for the different Thoth energies
present in several channelings and interactions with different Beings
and activities over the recent Earth years. This is not to mention
that of course there are several other entities that have, and are
now, masquerading as Thoth, so please access Guidance and use
discernment when interacting with a "Thoth entity".

It may be difficult for some of you to grasp this scenario but think
of your human minds and how they are very capable of dissociating and
compartmentalizing into two or more very distinct personalities. They
become very separate and distinct and vibrate and different
frequencies and your psychiatrists work to heal the issues that caused
the original "splits" in the first place and reintegrate the
personalities into one.

This is all for now.
Be Well
In Light,
Thoth


{The ongoing Creational story Thoth speaks of here is available free
in the first two volumes of  Where Were You before The Tree of Life?,
available for download at www.4truthseekers.org}